Michael Carrick Speaks Out On How He Suffered Depression After Losing in 2009 Champions League Final To Barcelona


Manchester United ex-midfielder Michael Carrick has spoken out on how he felt after his loose header in 2009 Champions League final gifted Barcelona a goal. In an interview with the times, Carrick revealed that he suffered depression for up to two years after.

“It was the biggest low of my career by quite some way and I don’t really know why,” Carrick told the times. “I thought I’d let myself down in the biggest game of my career. I had won the Champions League the year before, but that was totally irrelevant.

“It felt like I was depressed. I was really down. I imagine that is what depression is.

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“I describe it as depression because it wasn’t a one-off thing. I felt bad or terrible after some games, but then you get over it in the next couple of days, but that one I just couldn’t shrug off. It was a strange feeling.”

“I beat myself up over that goal,” Carrick says. “I kept asking myself: ‘why did I do that?’ and then it [the depression] snowballed from there. It was a tough year after that. It lingered for a long time.”

“As a footballer you are expected to be that machine that just churns out results after results, performance after performance,” Carrick says. “You are paid well and you play for a big club so why can’t he be good every week? It’s just not like that. It’s not easy to do that and it’s easy to forget that. There could be all sorts going on that you don’t know about.”

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“In 2010, that was the worst time. It was my dream to be at a World Cup but the truth is that I didn’t want to be there,” Carrick says. “I wanted to be at home. I was telling Lisa: ‘I’ve had enough. I want to come home.’

“I wouldn’t have done but that’s how I felt.”

“I kept it to myself most of the time. Even my family didn’t know the full extent of it,” he says.

“It’s not something that’s really spoken about in football. I have not spoken about it before. For the lads that I have played with that are reading this, this will be the first time that they know [about the depression]. They wouldn’t know. They might say he wasn’t playing well, or he wasn’t himself, but they wouldn’t know the extent to which the problem was. I just tried to keep it to myself and get through it.” He said